A really tough day

I've had a Kleenex in my had most of the day....you might want to grab one, because I need to write my thoughts so I do not forget this day.

Tonight marks 1 month since we lost Daddy.  A month.....in 6 hours we'll have to say "over a month ago" and I've had a heck of a time dealing with this today. 

It started as any other day....I zipped to Richardson to work at the company that helps us close loans.  I get out at lunch and head to Chik fil a, my favorite when going to Richardson.   As I sat in line I watched as I lady came out with these tiny little shoes in her hand and a little girls hand in the other.  The little girl couldn't have been more than 2 years old.  She was crying so hard and the lady was trying to console her, it was a very sweet moment to witness.  I'd venture to guess that that little girl was crying because although the lady thought it was time to go, she'd rather stay and play.  As I watched this with a smile, the song "I saw God today" came on.  It's George Strait and it's just a very touching song, especially when you remember that his daughter was killed in a car accident several years ago.  By the time the song was over, I was up to pay and in tears beyond stopping.  I couldn't help but think about Dad.  Just as now, as the tears roll, it happened today too.  I finally got my food and got back to the office.  At 5:30 I bolted for home and when I got in the car, Brad Paisley and Dolly Pardon were singing "When I get where I'm going" which is what I chose for Dad's funeral.  I cried some more. 

Then....as if it should have happened, I hear "One more day" that Morgan chose for the service.  This was more than I could stand....I cried all the way home.

Gathering myself, I get to the apartment and go check the mail.  There is an envelope with Mom's handwriting.....I remembered her saying that Cay had written something for Carla and I and she wanted to mail it.  It was here.....I opened the envelope and when it started "Dearest girls" I couldn't read anymore thru the tears.  It took me a minute to clear my eyes, but then I read her story of the deer and a man's two daughters.   It was such a fitting end to a very tearful day.   I shall save that letter forever. 

I miss his calls, I miss his questions, I miss him....I know you do too Carla.  Maybe we can go see the deer the next time I come down that way, together.  He'd like that.

Cay thank you for making me smile thru the tears, I sure needed it today.  And Mom, I love you!  You too Carla. 

From one of his girls....
Pam

absolutely nothing day!

I can't even remember the last time we had a do nothing Sunday and it sure felt good. Danny and I went to Starbucks this morning. I cooked lunch then had a nap. Colby and I then ran to Tom Thumb and I cooked breakfast for dinner. His request. He's cashed out on the couch. Danny is watching tv in his room. Tank and are in my recliner.  Nice ending to a quiet Sunday.

Ohhhhh and I got a new vehicle yesterday. Buick Encore it's a mini of moms Enclave.  Steel Gray 2013.  25 city 33 highway mpg. I always said once you go SUV, it's hard to go back to a car. I made it 3 years. Now....suv again!

Have a great week all!

PK

One less flight attendant

SCORE! Got the plane seat by the window and in the row where the middle seat is a tray. A very funny flight attendant on a plane a few weeks ago said it was Americans way of cutting costs. 4 trays in place of seats took one flight attendant off their 737's. She said the number of seats determines how many of them work the flight. She finished by saying that it just made her have to work harder. LOL.

Off to Irvine, CA I go. TTFN

Central Park

No.....not that Central Park. This one. Tank and I checked it out tonight. He's bellied out on the floor cooling his...um, tummy. Yeah tummy.

Bright shoes and a Happy birthday

Yep....this is what Danny wanted for his birthday.

Parking lot...

Tonight I am on the balcony and a car pulls up in the ball park parking lot...there is no game tonight. A man jumps out and grabs two orange cones and walks across the parking lot. He then goes back to the car and a young girl gets out and runs around to the drivers side. She's there to practice parrallel parking 5-6 tries later she gets it right. Should have applauded! Watching Netflix on the computer now....cable comes Wednesday. Getting a little dull without TV. We are in the apartment. No pictures hung. Still a couple of boxes in the middle of the living room. Danny woke up at 2am to the bright lights of the Ikea sign. I slept like a baby! Hope to have everything in it's place after my four day weekend coming up. And....maybe the boys can come over and swim and see a ballgame. Unless you have other plans Ashley...text me. Love u! PK

Just because I want to save these images and I miss him